I began 2021 feeling emotionally drained and scatterbrained.
2020 was hard on all of us and for me it was a true test of choosing joy and living encouraged no matter what.
I am overwhelmed with gratitude to God that with His grace I passed that test. The same tools and encouragement I share with you helped me to praise my way through every crazy obstacle and seemingly impossible situation I faced.
And now I find myself more than a quarter of the way through a new year and feeling overwhelmed in a different way.
A good way....but y’all I could use some prayer.
I’ve been seeking guidance from God for months and asking Him for direction for next steps with loved+blessed. It seemed like He was silent through January and February, then I started to hear Him whisper in March. But boy is He speaking to me in April!
This month I have regained my focus.
Side note: Interestingly that’s my word for the year. And I’ve gotten so much confirmation of it from sermons I’ve heard, conversations with friends and even random - not so random - things that have happened.
Daily, I’m not exaggerating, literally daily, He has been dropping ideas into my spirit.
I have 4 notebooks open on my desk right now with scribbles of the thoughts and product ideas and event ideas and future plans He has opened my eyes to see. It’s what I asked for - focus and direction. He answered my prayers….and now is when the doubt starts to seep in.
Wow Lord, that would be amazing!
Wow Lord, what a cool idea!
Wow Lord, that You would entrust this to me!
Wow, Lord, I’m not worthy.
Wow Lord, are You sure?
Wow Lord, I don’t know how I will get all that done.
Wow, Lord, I need help.
Wow Lord, I wish I could, but I don’t have the resources to make that happen.
Wow, Lord, okay I’ll write this all down and start it when I have everything I need....
This is the conversation that has begun in my head.
BUT thankfully I’ve learned from my past delayed obedience, aka disobedience, that no matter what self doubt and discouraging conversation is going on in my head, I can’t delay. I have to move on this NOW and trust that He will provide.
Where God guides He provides.
That’s how it’s been since loved+blessed began.
In the over 7 years since I started this business and personal ministry, it has survived past seasons when I feared I’d have to shut it down.
God does not have to prove anything to me.
BUT GOD has proved time and time again that He is faithful and that somehow, someway, He will make a way when I step out on faith and do it scared for His Glory.
So today I ask for your prayers.
Please pray that I would continue to hear His voice and clearly understand His guidance.
Please pray that I would be a good steward of the ideas, inspiration and vision He has given me and act on it in His right timing.
Please pray that the spirit of fear and self doubt would be removed from me and kept from making a home in my mind.
Please pray that the help, resources, willing hands and financial means would be provided.
And please pray that all that He has assigned to me will be done for His Glory and to encourage His Kingdom.
In the name of Jesus.
Sincerely, thank you for praying for me.
Jamila is the founder of loved+blessed. On her personal mission to leave a legacy of encouragement, she blogs about her own life lessons with the hope that it will bring joy into others’ lives and help them find the courage to keep walking in faith knowing that all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord. Read her testimony of how God turned her misery into ministry.