Writing is one way I express what I’m feeling. There is something freeing about writing in my personal journals. It’s a space for my eyes only, where I can pour out my feelings, raw and unedited. Some of those feelings make it to the pages of this blog or into one of our boxes of encouragement because I feel strongly that being honest and open about life’s struggles is essential in reminding each other that we’re not alone.
So here goes….what is shared below is something I wrote in a season of despair. I wrote it to remind myself that there is no valley too deep for God to bring me out of. I hope it will remind you of that too.
Depression feels like a heavy weight pressing consistently down on my head, my mind, my body, my heart, my thoughts, my breath. It’s a pressure that just won’t lift. I can’t get relief. And yet I know I may be feeling pressure from every side, but I am not crushed, I may feel alone, but I have not been abandoned. I may feel down, but I am not destroyed.
I’m exhausted physically, but You say You will renew my strength because I put my hope in You.
My thoughts are filled with negativity, the worst that could happen. Unrestrained A.N.T.s (automatic negative thoughts) are swarming uncontrollably. But You say I can take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ.
Hopelessness is the season I’m drowning in, but You say You have a special future planned just for me.
So no matter how I feel I know Your truth. I know my mind and my body are weak and allowing these negative thoughts and despair to invade but Your Grace is sufficient. My weakness makes room for Your power.
So I will keep moving forward. Taking one day, one moment at a time. Knowing that if I keep my eyes on You, You will help me, because You love me.
And because I love You, you will work all things out for my good.
Thank you Father. I will be joyful because I still have hope, patient through this affliction and continue to pray to You in faith.
In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.
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Jamila is the founder of loved+blessed. On her personal mission to leave a legacy of encouragement, she blogs about her own life lessons with the hope that it will bring joy into others’ lives and help them find the courage to keep walking in faith knowing that all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord. Read her testimony of how God turned her misery into ministry.