As far back as I can recall, worrying has been what I did. I worried about everything, such as, Will I like the dinner my Mom was making tonight? When would my next asthma attack come on and interrupt my daily life plans? I Have had an extremely bad case of asthma since 6 months old. Not the kind of asthma where someone pulls out an inhaler every so often, but so bad that I needed very high doses of steroids to even somewhat control it. So bad that when they tried to lower my steroid dose twice I ended up on a ventilator fighting for my life. 

After many years of taking this medication that was meant to save my life, it was taking its toll on many other parts of my body. One of these parts were my bones. In my early teens osteoporosis struck & I soon forgot what it was like to live a day without physical pain. Somehow I began to feel as if I worried enough about my health that I had it under control when in reality I had not experienced enough of life yet to know how little control I had. Until Valentine’s Day of my Junior year in college when my life as I knew it was about to be thrown the fastest curveball I had ever seen.

Being able to go to college in my hometown and blessed enough to be able to live on campus for the full college experience was a dream come true. As I was picking up laundry at home, I tripped and went down so hard & fast that I broke my femur. The break was so bad I needed surgery to fix it. 

Well the surgery was not a success to say the least. After seven hours of a surgery that was supposed to take 3, my parents were told I would not be able to walk again. My life had changed in that split second and the worst realization was that I had absolutely no control over this. 

Wow, how could this happen? I must have asked many times. How could my life go from living out on my own in a college dorm. I thought I was going to be a psychologist and counsel children and teens that needed an ear to listen. Only one year was left until graduation. At this point I felt so terribly lost. I thought I wasn’t even close to finding my way & at the time it was the last thing on my mind

Those next five years of my life were honestly some of my hardest. My three younger siblings all had a life of school, friends, etc. Being in bed most of the time due to multiple infections the surgery left me with was basically my life during this season. This led to lots of physical pain as well. One thing I remember that my Mom made happen during this time, was every night we would all sit down at the dinner table to eat together. We always did this growing up so my Mom was trying to give us all some normalcy. However, normal was far from what it was. Each night my siblings would sit and wait for me to get into my wheelchair with my Mom’s help and much effort. I wanted to eat together so badly, but the pain it all caused got to be too much. such high doses of pain meds were given to me & at times took only a little pain away. So many antibiotics were pumped into my veins also. Honestly, with all that strong medication, beyond all the medical facts during this time much of it is a blank. It is like I have 5 whole years of my life that barely happened, but yet they did. It was with the prompting of my brother that led my parents and I to seek a second opinion. The doctor. that we met with worked out of a very well known orthopedic hospital in New York City. He met with us and said he was convinced there was a good chance that I could walk again if I had a couple of surgeries. Many thoughts and feelings were racing through my mind. Since no doctor. mentioned this, wasn’t it a huge risk? At the same time, happiness filled my heart at the thought of walking again. For me there was one thing only I could do--take the risk and recall what the following Bible passage says.


Trust in the Lord with all your heart

and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways submit to him,

and he will make your paths straight. 

- Proverbs 3:5-6

For me this passage means just as it says, to trust God with your whole heart and by taking this risk that is what I figured out I had to do. It also says not to lean on your own understanding. I didn’t understand why this opportunity to have these surgeries were presenting themselves now, but I don’t have to get it if I trust Christ.

I went through with the scary decision to go through with the two surgeries. First, he did a surgery to put antibiotic beads in my leg that would wipe out any infection left there & to fix my broken my femur. Weeks later, after the beads had done their job, I went in for a hip replacement. After the surgery it suddenly hit me that I really was going to walk again. The reason I knew is hard to explain. It was definitely the Holy Spirit who touched me. 

As I lay in the recovery room early the next morning. The start of a new day was beginning as I slowly saw the sunrise as beams of sunlight came through beautiful big windows. I was alone almost in silence except for monitors beeping around me & due to this I decided to put on my headphones. One of my Christian playlists was what I decided to put on as a way to relax & praise God for getting me through this surgery so well. One of my now favorite songs started playing called “Ten Thousand Angels Cried”. I heard the song dozens of times. In this moment,  iIt was as if I was hearing the words for the first time. A rush came over my entire body. This time it wasn’t a rush of intense physical pain like the ones I recall in my recent past years. No, this was an enormous rush of peace. That is the only way I can really describe it. It surprised me as much as the fall I took that day I broke my femur. Without warning I began to cry harder than I had in a long time. Everything was suddenly being released. I began to feel free from all the pain, loss, and loneliness that built up inside of me in those few moments. Laying there crying I felt safe--at peace. I think I was feeling God’s arms wrapped around me ever so tightly. All along I believe they were there, but I was just too numb to feel them.

As I lay there in that moment I cannot explain why or how, but I just knew that I was going to walk again. When people have asked me if I believe miracles happen, I tell them that I believe they do. You need faith to recognize they are miracles. I would not be able to walk today if God had not given me this miracle.A few weeks later I was able to take my first few steps; it felt like something surreal was happening. When you haven’t taken a step in five years, it is like you have never walked before. Once again my eyes welled with tears of true joy and happiness.Since this time in my life, I have been able to recognize so many other miracles and ways God has helped get me through hard times. Now one of the ways I cope with my worrying is by recalling all the times in the past when God has helped me through very hard circumstances. I reflect on them in my mind for a couple minutes or sometimes I’ll even write them all down. This helps me remember that God does have it all under control. I will turn to read the passage 

Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?”

- Luke 12:22-26

To me this passage means that God will always take care of us. Also it reminds me that by worrying we can’t add any time to our lives, so basically we are wasting precious minutes doing so.

As for the smaller things I worried about throughout life, that is what they have become for me -- small things. Worrying about them is just wasting my time. So I now have learned some ways to manage worrying about my health when it comes up, but I am going to be honest by saying it is something I do still struggle with. My first response is usually worrying but I now catch myself many times and use my ways to manage my thoughts. The most important thing I learned from this, is that worrying nor anything else has control as far as what happens in our lives now or down the road. The one who is in control is Christ. Just like it’s telling us in Luke 12:25, “Not one of us by worrying can add a single hour to our lives”, so let’s humble ourselves enough to realize we don’t have that control.”

By writing this I wanted to let you know that there is always hope. No matter how dark of a season of your life you are in, there is always that stream of light that can come through the big glass window, that 1st glimpse of sunlight that hits the ocean at sunrise. You just have to have faith that God has His arms around you. Having those couple surgeries I took that leap of faith and God was right there, just waiting to catch me.



Below is the link to the video for the LeAnn Rimes song called “Ten Thousand Angels Cried” . This video alone can move you to tears with it’s beautiful and ever so real pictures portraying God’s love for us all. The lyrics also tell us how hard it must have been for God to watch His only Son die so that all of us will have eternal life with Him. There is not much more hope He can give us than THIS!!! 

 


 

by Melissa Winters

Melissa is a member of the loved and blessed ladies community who strives to deepen her knowledge & faith in Jesus Christ daily. As a warrior, she has battled with Chronic illness & its many effects her entire life. On her own or enjoying the company of family & good friends, she enjoys writing, music, reading, and participating on retreat teams and Bible studies. A few of her loves in life are the ocean (LBI New Jersey being a favorite), laughing, & her 8 nieces and nephews.


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This was an amazing read, as I suffer from lupus, osteoporosis, and many other things. I understand the pain, I understand not being able to do things and worrying about everything.
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Cindy Bates said:

Thanks Melissa for the encouraging story of what faith in the Lord can do! That peace you mentioned, I’ve also experienced. When I was 16 I was baptized. It was a moving and peaceful experience for me. IWhen I came up from being dunked under the water, a peaceful cleansing feeling came over me. I also believe that miracles still happen in today’s world, because I’ve experienced several of them. Some miracles before being baptized and some since I’ve been baptized. The passages you quoted in Psalms and Luke are two of my favorite ones along with the one about having faith the size of a mustard seed. But my favorite passage in the Bible is Proverbs 25:11.

“A word aptly spoken is like apples of gold in settings of silver.”

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This is such a great reminder of the futility of worrying. When there is nothing else we can do, when it is completely out of our control, this means it’s all up to God and his power. And if that’s the case, there really is no need to worry. Just trust. Easier said than done, I know. But it’s better than the worrying alternative.
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Melissa Winters said:

Thanks so much Charnell! I hope it helped you in some way! God bless you.🙏🙏🤗

Charnell Jones said:

Bless you Melissa! Thanks for sharing your story!

Valarie Friedman said:

Beautifully written. Thank you for sharing your experience, strength and hope! Continued Peace and Blessings!

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Melissa, this is so beautiful. I cried throughout reading it. God bless you and your beautiful message.

Melissa Winters said:

Thank you Arlene and Paula, yes, I truly do hope my voice will help others to have faith even in the hardest of times. Thank you both for reading it and for your beautiful comments! 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️🤗🤗🤗🤗

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Melissa, I am touched beyond belief of this beautiful reflection on your life. Thank you so much to share this with all who read it.
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Arlene said:

Melissa,
Beautifully written. Among other things, you can count yourself as a brilliant writer. I know your life’s struggles, as I have known your mom for over 50 years and you since you were born. Yes, it hasn’t been easy, but look how far you’ve come, with faith, love and constant support from family and friends. You are a special light in this world and now you are using your voice to encourage others. Bravo!

Melissa Krikos said:

Melissa thank you for sharing this article with us. You so eloquently put to words your struggles. Thank you for opening yourself up to your vulnerabilities and using them to glorify God even when life throws you curveballs. You should be so proud of yourself for this article, what an achievement!

XOXO Melissa Krikos

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